Up with your turret, Aren't we just terrified?

Hey Hey! It's almost 1am, I just got home from Tom's house. So I had to wake up at 10:30 to be at Tom's house for 12. Beth's baby shower started at 1, and it really was not bad at all. It was a little akward when I first got there, but that's usually how it is right? I warmed up after a while. (after i had a drink!) haha. but Deisel (Tom's Mom) was like "Relax Sam! And i was totally fine, but whatever. I ended up having a good time. I'm always reluctant at first, and always think negatively because I told tom i was gonna go home after the baby shower, but i didn't. Some people ended up coming back to his house after the shower, and there was already like 10 people at the house as it was. But it was okay because I got coffee at DD. So we sat down there and talked with everyone until we went to dinner, and i was completely stuffed already! But I just had a caesar salad and it was delicious! Overall it was a really good day, and I need to stop thinking so negatively.

Everyone thinks I should definitely go to school in Rhode Island.. I don't know. Me and tom are going to see dragon tomorrow, yay! very very excited for it. Byeee

Place your bets on chance and apathy

Hi! So, i mentioned how I was getting my accounting test back, and I got a 96% on it! I can not be more excited then I am right now. School is going so well, I'm so happy! Maybe I can keep up my 3.0 GPA. Which reminds me I have a business 107 test either Monday or Wednesday that I have to study for! I'll be alright for it, so no worries. Which reminds me I still have to make an appointment with my counselor so I can change my major. Because right now I'm still hotel/restaurant/institution major. The thing is MCC only offers a certificate for Event management, which I can get. But I'm not sure what my major will be? Because Johnson And Wales has this really good program with Sports management which I would love to do. Basically I want to work/plan sporting event type parties, it's cool. But I don't know if any other schools have the program besides Johnson And Wales, and that is local. Because The school is in Rhode Island.. and I'm scared to leave home. I don't know we'll see!

But tonight Tom and I are going to see Hot tub time machine when he gets out of work. I really wanted to see how to train your dragon, and he does too. But I know he really wants to see hot tub more so I decided let him choose for once, lol. But I'm gonna go shower and spruce up a bit before he gets here. So, Bye! Oh and wish me luck with meeting a ton of new people tomorrow at this baby shower, ahh!

The monsters are burried down deep inside

Oh my God! I just got home from English Class, and I'm in complete and utter shock right now! I got a 90 on my first essay, and a 92 on my second essay (which was in class)! I can not friggen believe it! I though I bombed them SO bad, but apparently I did the complete opposite! He even wrote "I'm proud of you Sam." How fucking amazing is that! Wooooo! I need to go out and celebrate. Haha i never get like this over grades, but I mean come on this is english class!

Okay so, today was otherwise boring. I worked until 3pm. I came home, sat on my bed and watched new moon, again. Yeah I'm weird, get over it. I don't know if I'm going to Augie's house to hang out with Katlyn and him, or going to Tom's yet. It's only 8:30 though and I am fucking awake! haha. I have accounting in the morning, and I get my first test back tomorrow, which is cool. I think I did good. And then I have work at 3, unless I get out early and go in early, whatever. Which reminds me I forgot to do my homework.. oh well. we only get a check mark. Okay I'm outtie! 

i wish i was a little bit taller

I was just informed that my cousin Jennifer, and the kids are moving like 2 blocks from us, and they'll be in by April 15! This is so exciting! I barely ever see Benjamin and Kylie, so I'm really happy. Benjamin's gonna be 4 on April 9th! It's crazy how fast the years go.. And I was looking on facebook and my cousin Kim (who's 20) and pregnant.. AGAIN. It's just crazy to me.. 

Tom's mom bought this ride on lion thing for Beth and she wants me to give it to Beth as a present for Saturday. So I gave in and said I'd just take that present but repay her for it. Which is good because now I don't have to go to the store, lol. But this weekend is definitely going to be crazy at Tom's house because there is going to be massive amounts of people at the house, so I don't think i'll be there that much this weekend.. oh well. I got to see him today, and I might go over tomorrow after english class, i'm not sure yet. It'll only be for like 2 hours, but at least it's something. Well I don't have much to talk about today. But I did give in and smoked a cigarette, which I haven't for weeks.. ugh I smell like them still and I'm disappointed in myself, oh well. It was only one right? 

Night everyone, time to watch some George Lopez, and then the Nanny! Yay. Can't stay up too late though, I have to wake up for work at 8am tomorrow, and I work until 3, and then English class at 6pm, which I have a midterm in. And then hopefully go to Tom's house.

I wish I had a rabbit in a hat with a bat and a 6-4 impala

Morning! I'm obsessed with this song my brother downloaded, it's by the secret handshake. They're cool. So I just finished my paper I had to write for English class, it's longer than it's suppose to be which is good. I wrote about how abstinence only programs in school are stupid. And I read what i had to for the midterm on Thursday night. So english is all out of the way.

I have to start doing my crossword puzzles and study guides for Business 107. Which won't be hard. I have to start my accounting homework as well, and in supervising class we don't even get homework at all. So, I'm maybe half way done with my to-do list. What's left for today..

To-Do:
1. Get car inspected.
2. Go return clothes at East Brunswick Mall.
3. Get Beth's baby shower present.
4. Finish Accounting Homework.

Not too bad, I'm probably gonna go shower soon so I can go get my car inspected. And hopefully Kari is gonna come with me. And I'm gonna drag her to the mall with me too. haha. Me and Mom are gonna go to target I think before we go to Bingo tonight and get Beth's present unless I go to Children's Place at the mall. We'll see. But I'm gonna go get ready.

Looking forward to:

Monday April 5, 2010- Met's Opening Day! Woo, Let's hope for a better season!
Sunday, April 11: Fan Appreciation Game! Mom, Dad, Michael, Jess, Tom and I are all going!
Tuesday, April 20: My 19th Birthday! Yay me.

.. yes again

Hi again. Yeah I'm posting again tonight. I know nobody is reading this which kind of sucks because I could use some support from other people. I'm talking to Tom right now, well texting him and I'm just kind of bummed out.

Here's the deal; He lives in South Brunswick, and I'm from Edison. On a good day it takes me about 20 minutes to get there. Other days with traffic it can take up to like 45 minutes. We both have really busy schedules, well him more than me. He works Monday Wednesday Thursday and Friday. On Tuesday's he has a night class. So that leaves only Saturday and Sunday's to spend time with each other. I feel like I'm in a long distance relationship, and it is just so hard not seeing him. I know he feels the same way, but sometimes I feel like he doesn't try as hard as I do, which is frustrating.

But, I also have this way of pushing him away, when I need him most. I guess I'm just a very difficult girl, who pretty much needs to chill the hell out. I'm always constantly thinking of the future and not the present day I suppose. Look at me, it's only Monday and i'm already freaking out about the weekend.

See this is what is going to happen this weekend. His sister Beth is having a baby! Which is amazing, and the baby shower is this Saturday at 1:00. It's at a restaurant somewhere in South Bruns. and I took off of work, so i don't have to deal with being late and all that jazz. (And I have to go shopping for the baby and myself also tomorrow!) So after the baby shower, I'll be at his house all night. But he wants me to stay over which I most likely won't do because Beth and her husband Jay will be staying over, and Kelly's coming home too. Which means I'll have to sleep in the basement and just be a burden, so I don't want to.

And on Sunday, he had already warned me last weekend that he was going to go to his friends house to watch stupid wrestling. Which I don't understand why he still watches it, it's so dumb and fake. But I'm just upset about it because it's our day to be together. And now I'll only have a few hours with him when we usually have all day. Ugh. It's so frustrating and hard to handle sometimes, it's emotionally draining not being able to be with the one person you want to be with the most.

Maybe I should stop being so selfish? I mean that is how I feel sometimes, because he doesn't see his friends much. But then on the other hand, I don't even see my boyfriend, so why should I be knocked down to only seeing him one day out of the 7 days out of a week?! I don't know.. But what I do know is that I am absolutely in love him, and I don't want to mess this relationship up..

.. all you need is love.

So, this is my first blog EVER. Exciting huh? I guess this will help keep me occupied, and be some sort of stress relief. It was an absolutely BEAUTIFUL weekend! The weather seriously could not have been nicer, and me and Tom finally spent time together after a long 6 days of not seeing each other. I had to work until 1pm on Saturday, so we went to go see his Gram and Pop, which live in Spring Lake. It's down the shore, and it's really nice and reserved down there. We got there around 4ish, and as always his grandparents were delighted to see me. They're so cute! Tom and I went for a drive around the town, it was really nice. I was kind of bummed that we didn't get to walk on the beach but, it's alright since we have all summer. We went to their favorite Diner with his grandparents. The food.. not so great. Ha. We got to his house around 8ish and just kinda bummed it around the house all night, no complaints here!

Sunday, I didn't work yet AGAIN. It's really starting to suck because I make time and a half on Sundays and now I can't work in my department because "there's no reason for it." So if I want to work, I have to go back on the front end.. Fat chance of that happening. Ugh. My parents had a wedding that day so I helped my mom do her hair, it came out quite amazing if you ask me! I went to Tom's house(yes again!) it's practically my second home. I FINALLY watched Iron Man, and Robert Downey Jr. need I say more? I think NOT. But aside from him being beautiful the movie was amazing, and I can't wait for the sequel! Woo!


Speaking of sequels, Tom surprised me with New Moon! It really wasn't a surprise because i knew he was going to buy it for me, but whatever. He absolutely hates the whole Twilight Saga, but I love it. A lot of people say the movies suck, but I don't care. I will say the books are much better then the movies, but that is usually how it goes. I'm interested to see how the directors play out the rest of movies, because I have a feeling they might not be like the books.. But we'll see June 30! But yeah, it wasn't a very eventful Spring break, but it sure was nice not having to worry about school. Can't wait until this semester is over with already. But Classes are back and it's raining and gross outside. Good start to a week? I think NOT.